Monday, July 4, 2011

on expansion

So if I were still on a mat leave, mine would be up by now with all the time taken for health issues.
I'd be prepping for going back to work and feeling unsure about it. Which is exactly how I feel. We decided to make sacrifices for the first year of monroe's life and then back to the grind until babe #2.

Thing is I have no idea where I want to work, how many days per week, how much I can stand him being with someone else during the day, or how much I'll appreciate my time alone?

I have a few friends who had their babes around a year ago, who are now announcing pregnancies, and I can't help but feel a little like I'd like to join them there. We still want a large family and are excited to expand. But it is not time yet. Due to all of the issues with my previous pregnancy we've been given a strict timeline on future pregnancies and I am finding it really hard to come to terms with right now.

I think a lot of it has to do with this amazingly interactive smiley, happy beautiful little man  that I get to hang-out with daily. Watching him interact with other children makes me want them even more knowing how well he'll react to them.

Timeline is still in place and I am dealing with that, just thought I'd be a little honest about how I feel about this in this moment.
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2 comments:

  1. Curious how long you have to wait. I'm not pregnant, although I'm feeling the same draw as you, to be! I can't wait for Ev to be a big brother. :) We're waiting till atleast his first birthday to start trying (not sure if that's a mutual decision ;) )

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  2. I have been wanting to get pregnant since Adele, who is now 9month old, was about 4 months but like you I really have to think twice before entering into another pregnancy. Needless to say I have a different issue to consider. I loved being pregnant and love being a mom but don't know what I would do without the help from my loved one's. Maybe one day I will say "screw it all" and just do it. Of course I do not recommend that to others.

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